A peer's paragraph sits in glaring awkwardness, alone, but surrounded. I watch it shine self consciously, unembellished, naked before the crowd. Inartistic and unused to public speaking, it's dry tones rasp out brutish, unrefined knowledge. It displays its bareness and logic, and hopes it exhibits more than the monochromatic.
A poem crawls out of my chest and through my mouth. I catch it gently, and set it down upon the table, to keep the sturdy orange words of the paragraph company. On spindly, unstable limbs it approaches, wary and watchful. The tentative ticking of its cloven hooves marks the time in in the uncomfortable silence. W
Few can clone
The lace of your sin
The task of a bone
I sip the teas
As bane you hone
The Alps of your age
A gapped cocoon
Your scalp is a cage
The bay of your skin
A cranial page
Listen, a snip
He nips the tin
A silicon clip
Fire to cock
The slick of a lip
Neon whore
The rain of coin
His bear, his boar
Or balcony vibe
The mob, the few
The sin to soar
I open my mouth to emptiness
And where words used to be
On my tongue, waiting to take to air
Are broken down letters, count, a, b, c
There's not a word for any of this
Though Perfect smugly steps to line
Beautiful tosses her silky hair
Fated sits, and bides his time
Forever rests on Fated's arm
She is his mail order bride
Hopeless romantic that Love is
She just sits around and sighs
All of them seem pale now
As they wait in line inside my head
My mouth sad, it cannot speak
I'll use it to kiss you instead
Would I were to pen your sight
To the deepest blue of cloud-laced skies
Or the darkest seas, to contentedly drown
In whatever waters were your eyes
Would my toes entice the undertow?
Or the airy way that I sighed?
Could I ask your handsome oceans
What would they like to take to tide?
Plead the stones ensnare my ankles
Offer the seaweed constraint of my wrist
Allow my lungs to breath in water
Longing for the sea salt, kissed
Bare my body, to the bottom
Sunken in the sweet, dark sea
All to simply write your eyes
To what I've seen them to be
So I was born
Into dancing with my father to Carol King
Feeling the earth move; sunrise, sunset; spinning in an old townhouse
Doted on by drag queens, smoggy sky
Sleeping in the company of tigers, larger than I
And blue spotted horses; pulling up pansies behind my mother
As she beautified my first birthday
I am made from ocean pearl lullabies,
Of holding and hands sunflower dresses
Spearmint gum and black cats
Willow crowns and grass
And eating thoughts
Next, wide brown eyes
With the wide, brown earth
Swimming through the humid air
To cross bridges to the ocean
Spitting seeds; collecting sea shells
Collecting the smell of wor
You picked me once
You pulled me twice
Your irises were oceans
With waves to entice
Your cheekbones were lilies
With little dark specks
Your words were spun silk
Which brushing my neck
My little white throat
The tenderest of roses
My little red heart
All poppies and poses
Your fingers were weeds
With roots to untangle
Your breath was all choking
With too much to strangle
But now that you've gone
I am withered and homely
Flowers aren't pretty
When they are all lonely.
I am not the lovely thing
With tempered sweet and birdsong voice
I am not the special girl
I'm nobody's first choice
I'm not the one who gets the sweet
The promise of forever be,
I am nobody's first choice
A nobody's good enough for me
Terrorized by your bloody blue eyes
Terrified of making ties
Knowing that, if no one buys
A woman's a girl, when she finally dies
Could I choose, I'd make a choice
But speaking softly, I've lost my voice
Mortified of mouths all moist
The hellish hunch, the heft, the hoist
Speaking so, my secret scare
About such things, what ripe and rare
Bracing, binding, for time laid bare
Tick, tick, the time, the when and where
I'm just a girl, who took a fright
The sudden, sickish, lack of light
The many men, what they might
In the night-time, time of night
I admit my little fear
Please pretend you didn't hear
I'll let it go, promise, de
How my eyes blur all to bleary
In the dark, the dank, the dreary
A yelping yawn to make them teary
When the willing, oh so weary
How did I bid goodbye?
The whisper-wheat, the grasses high
The lingering, tingling, reaching rye
Straining so, to touch the sky
The sweet honey drip that was the sun
Which made us two melt into one
Our feet grew wings, when wanted to run
Were we never, ever were done
Memory, the merry friend
Will you ever make amend?
You allow my mind to lend
Back to begin, end to end
End we did, and end we had
Sinking, sunken lilly pad
Down a dream to ever-so-sad
Make my mind into the mad
So now the cloudy, must
A peer's paragraph sits in glaring awkwardness, alone, but surrounded. I watch it shine self consciously, unembellished, naked before the crowd. Inartistic and unused to public speaking, it's dry tones rasp out brutish, unrefined knowledge. It displays its bareness and logic, and hopes it exhibits more than the monochromatic.
A poem crawls out of my chest and through my mouth. I catch it gently, and set it down upon the table, to keep the sturdy orange words of the paragraph company. On spindly, unstable limbs it approaches, wary and watchful. The tentative ticking of its cloven hooves marks the time in in the uncomfortable silence. W
Few can clone
The lace of your sin
The task of a bone
I sip the teas
As bane you hone
The Alps of your age
A gapped cocoon
Your scalp is a cage
The bay of your skin
A cranial page
Listen, a snip
He nips the tin
A silicon clip
Fire to cock
The slick of a lip
Neon whore
The rain of coin
His bear, his boar
Or balcony vibe
The mob, the few
The sin to soar
I open my mouth to emptiness
And where words used to be
On my tongue, waiting to take to air
Are broken down letters, count, a, b, c
There's not a word for any of this
Though Perfect smugly steps to line
Beautiful tosses her silky hair
Fated sits, and bides his time
Forever rests on Fated's arm
She is his mail order bride
Hopeless romantic that Love is
She just sits around and sighs
All of them seem pale now
As they wait in line inside my head
My mouth sad, it cannot speak
I'll use it to kiss you instead
Would I were to pen your sight
To the deepest blue of cloud-laced skies
Or the darkest seas, to contentedly drown
In whatever waters were your eyes
Would my toes entice the undertow?
Or the airy way that I sighed?
Could I ask your handsome oceans
What would they like to take to tide?
Plead the stones ensnare my ankles
Offer the seaweed constraint of my wrist
Allow my lungs to breath in water
Longing for the sea salt, kissed
Bare my body, to the bottom
Sunken in the sweet, dark sea
All to simply write your eyes
To what I've seen them to be
So I was born
Into dancing with my father to Carol King
Feeling the earth move; sunrise, sunset; spinning in an old townhouse
Doted on by drag queens, smoggy sky
Sleeping in the company of tigers, larger than I
And blue spotted horses; pulling up pansies behind my mother
As she beautified my first birthday
I am made from ocean pearl lullabies,
Of holding and hands sunflower dresses
Spearmint gum and black cats
Willow crowns and grass
And eating thoughts
Next, wide brown eyes
With the wide, brown earth
Swimming through the humid air
To cross bridges to the ocean
Spitting seeds; collecting sea shells
Collecting the smell of wor
You picked me once
You pulled me twice
Your irises were oceans
With waves to entice
Your cheekbones were lilies
With little dark specks
Your words were spun silk
Which brushing my neck
My little white throat
The tenderest of roses
My little red heart
All poppies and poses
Your fingers were weeds
With roots to untangle
Your breath was all choking
With too much to strangle
But now that you've gone
I am withered and homely
Flowers aren't pretty
When they are all lonely.
I am not the lovely thing
With tempered sweet and birdsong voice
I am not the special girl
I'm nobody's first choice
I'm not the one who gets the sweet
The promise of forever be,
I am nobody's first choice
A nobody's good enough for me
Terrorized by your bloody blue eyes
Terrified of making ties
Knowing that, if no one buys
A woman's a girl, when she finally dies
Could I choose, I'd make a choice
But speaking softly, I've lost my voice
Mortified of mouths all moist
The hellish hunch, the heft, the hoist
Speaking so, my secret scare
About such things, what ripe and rare
Bracing, binding, for time laid bare
Tick, tick, the time, the when and where
I'm just a girl, who took a fright
The sudden, sickish, lack of light
The many men, what they might
In the night-time, time of night
I admit my little fear
Please pretend you didn't hear
I'll let it go, promise, de
How my eyes blur all to bleary
In the dark, the dank, the dreary
A yelping yawn to make them teary
When the willing, oh so weary
How did I bid goodbye?
The whisper-wheat, the grasses high
The lingering, tingling, reaching rye
Straining so, to touch the sky
The sweet honey drip that was the sun
Which made us two melt into one
Our feet grew wings, when wanted to run
Were we never, ever were done
Memory, the merry friend
Will you ever make amend?
You allow my mind to lend
Back to begin, end to end
End we did, and end we had
Sinking, sunken lilly pad
Down a dream to ever-so-sad
Make my mind into the mad
So now the cloudy, must
I have no home
Utterly alone
I used to be afraid of change
Yet now
I seek it
Crave it
Need it.
Haven't felt at home in years
Peace is unattainable
Happiness unreachable
Loneliness inescapable.
Current Residence: MI Favourite genre of music: Alt, Punk, Folk, Folk Punk haha Favourite style of art: Anything! Operating System: My systems seldom operate normally.. MP3 player of choice: iPod. Shell of choice: Peace. Wallpaper of choice: Posters and randomness Favourite cartoon character: Scooby Doo, of course. Personal Quote: "Killing people doesn't make them like you, it just makes people dead. " -Lord Voldem
Favourite Visual Artist
Anyone who considers themselves such
Favourite Movies
Fantastic Mr. Fox, Repo! The Genetic Opera, Rocky Horror Picture Show
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Elliot Smith, Glasvegas, The Real McKenzies, Dropkick Murphies, Red Hot Chili Peppers exct.
Favourite Writers
Holly Black, Poe, Lloyd Alexander, Charles DeLint, Cassandra Clare, Marcus Zuzak, Wally Lamb, exct
Favourite Games
All games that do not require a video. As in, not video games.
So I'm trying to figure out the deal with the big man's list. Like, what qualifies you for nice, and what gets you damned to the naughty list? If his rules are the same as God's, well then I'm screwed. Not literally, of course (fumes quietly to self.) One of God's rules is that you've got to believe in him, and I fell of the band wagon there about, well, when I was born. Heathen through and through. But if being nice means generally not killing people and devouring their remains in a rage of blood lust, then I should be ok. Four people isn't that many, is it? ;)
Merry Winter my loves!
Tomorrow i leave for scotland to spend a week with my family, and then three weeks at a summer school programme majoring in creative writing and minoring in theatre!!!!!!!! :) YAEHHHH